The first 4 weeks of having 4 kids about did me in. The transistion from 3 kids to 4 was really tough. I honestly some days did not know how I was going to wake up and take care of my kids let alone myself. I will be honest I love having a newborn around and love everything about it but when I don't get my sleep it is hard for me to have as much patience as I need. Luckily my husband has an abundance of patience for my lack there of. It seemed like everything that could possibly go wrong did during these 4 weeks. I would not say that I get post partum depression but I do get the baby cries after I have a baby. I just will cry for no reason, not because I am sad, or depressed, and I have never resented my kids, it is just that I am super emotional, (more on that later). But with that on top of everything else I was at a lost most days on what I was going to do. The first week after I had Cruz I had my dear mother. O what on earth would I do without her. Dave went back to work and I remember gettting in the car on Sunday, Dave going back to work the next morning, and just crying. How was I going to do this bymyself, how was I going to give each kid enough attention, how was I going to nurse Cruz, feed the other 3 and still be sane? I got a call that night from an angel, literally my mother is angel sent. She called me and actually told me she wanted to talk to Dave, (because I have a really hard time accepting help). She then told Dave she was coming the next morning to pick up the older 3 so I could rest. My mom did this every single day the first week. My mom and dad, and sisters were absolutly amazing. They were the ones that helped my little family out with everything. So once again to my family THANK YOU! I truly don't think they will ever understand how grateful Dave and I are. We still talk about how helpful my family is and how lucky we are. After I got caught up on my sleep, well as much as you can with a newborn, I started to feel like I would be able to do this, and if I had faith that I could do this I could. I knew right away I had to stick with my very strict schedule with my older 3 if this was going to work, (also more on the schedule later). Things started to look up and I knew that I would be able to handle this. The twinners were the hard part. For the past 18 months they have been the center of attentin EVERYWHERE we go. We can't go anywhere without someone stopping and talking to my little girls. They had a hard time adjusting. Presley acted out in the way of becoming already busier than she already was and our little Paisley, who would love to be the center of attention all the time, had many a melt downs. Luckily they did not take it out on the baby, it almost was like they were punishing me! We did however figure out that we could make this work for all of us. Cole being the sweetheart that he was honestly it did not really affect him. We still all played trains together, and Cole loves his brother, but doesn't pay all that attention to him, he is after all extremely busy with his trains, and his toys :). Once I got to the 4th week with 4 kids, that we all were going to survive, that is until Dave accepted a new job and we found out he would be leaving us all for 3 weeks and then once again for 2 weeks! Someone please say a prayer for us.......ahhhhhhhh!
